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So give me reason ; To prove me wrong ,
To wash this memory clean .
My name is [x]love :D
There is no other info about me .
And all these are just my dreamland .
Dreams that I dream of at night .
Don't like me ? You can leave by the red 'x' on the top right hand corner .
You are @ theundyingpainofmine.blogspot.com.
I don't need anyone change my weaknesses or tell me my strengths , I just need someone who'll appreciate me for everythg that I am .
"It takes a lifetime to find someone, but only a moment to fall in love."
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Past records .
Transformers <3 !
Tuesday, June 30, 2009,
New Divide - Linkin Park .
I remember black skies
And lightning all around me
I remembered each flash
As time began to burn
Like a startling sign
The feint had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve
So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Ignite the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide
There is nothing inside
The memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide
The ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in
Between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve
So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your mind
Across this new divide
And every loss
And every lie
And every truth that you deny
And each regret
And each divide
Are some mistakes you pray to hide
And your voice was all I heard
But I get what I deserve
So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide
Across this new divide
Across this new divide
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide
Across this new divide
Across this new divide
This song rocks ! Haha (: Transformers was awesome too !
Dreamway ♥ .
11:22 PM <3
Bubbly !
Bubbly - Colbie Caillat .
Will you count me in?
I've been awake for a while now.
You've got me feeling like a child now.
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face,
I get the tingles in a silly place.
It starts in my toes,
And I crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes I'll always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.
The rain is falling on my window pane,
But we are hiding in a safer place.
Under covers staying safe and warm.
You give me feelings that I adore.
They start in my toes,
Make me crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes I'll always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.
What am I gonna say,
When you make me feel this way?
I just...mmm.
And it starts in my toes,
Makes me crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes I'll always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.
-Dum-da-da-da-da-da.
I've been asleep for a while now.
You tucked me in just like a child now.
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms,
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth.
It starts in my soul,
And I lose all control.
When you kiss my nose,
The feeling shows.
'Cause you make me smile.
Baby just take your time now,
Holding me tight.
Wherever, wherever, wherever you go.
Wherever, wherever, wherever you go.
Wherever you go,
Always know,
'Cause you make me smile even just for a while.
Anyway , you can press the next button on the song there for the this song !
Dreamway ♥ .
11:13 PM <3
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Monday, June 29, 2009,
Hello all !
Today is the first day of schl .
The day that all of us have been dreading .
I dreaded it too .
And yeah , it sucked . Ugh .
I had headache early in the morning .
Tummyache halfway in class .
Was feeling damn horrible lah zzz .
Seriously felt like going home , that's why I was quiet and kept to myself .
Minimise contact with people :/
I knw I should've gone home but I didn't want to lag behind in studies .
I'm sorry , I've seen the doctor anyway .
He said I was recovering , so you don't need to worry :x
Woke up 6:25 . Damn sleepy .
Schl bus to schl .
Teacher was scolding me for not wearing tie when I got down the bus .
Irritating . The tie is like so ma fan lah , ugh .
Went to class .
Zhi Hao came late ? Thn in the end , she wanted to quarantine him one LOL .
DAMN FUNNY LAH . She told him to get out and immediately punched her handphone buttons , haha :x
Anyway , everyone's temperature was normal lah , haha :D
First lesson was Bio .
Copied notes and slept through the rest of the lesson .
Gosh , it was boring .
Anyway , I'm aiming for A* in Bio .
Go dionis ! You can do it !
Haha , my file check got full marks !
Can't believe it , lmao .
Next was Integrated History .
Ugh , freaking boring .
Dozed off all the time .
Got back the stupid SEQ test .
I failed it 10/25 .
Wtf lah , I really studied for it alrdy leh .
Totally hate history .
DAMN YOU .
Anyway going to change history teacher , yay lol .
Recess .
Ate Yong Tau Foo with Shen Jing and Yiming as usual .
Stupid Fraser put chilli into my bowl .
Wahlao eh , damn hot can .
Zzz , made my lips burn like wth .
I hate you -.-
HCL .
Uh , went through worksheets and collected homework .
Went through the textbook though more thn half the class didn't bring .
I didn't pay attn , was talking about BOF with Chervelle :x
LA .
Copied notes on Macbeth .
I didn't really fall alseep , haha .
Was feeling much better anyway .
Lunch .
Ate omelette with Yiming .
Assembly in class .
Goals and stuffs . Boring .
A total waste of time can ._.
After schl .
Went home with Tse Jie .
Once I reached home , I headed for the bed and slept all the way until like 7 :x
Went to see doctor .
Oh wells . Now I'm trembling again , ugh .
Stupid medicine . Hope I'm well soon .
I feel so -_- whenever I'm sick lah :/
Anyway I'll show you smth a jerk said .
Wtf man . If this is true , I rather become a les .
Damnit . What's wrong with guys ?
Anyway , whatever .
Deciding to be a nun till 18 anyhow :D
And I miss Jasmine ._.
Ahhh , thn in the morning , no one come and find me .
I feel so weird o:
Love ya babe , come back soon , I miss you !
Ahh , I'm sleeping soon .
I've got headache again .
Bye (:
Today is the first day of schl .
The day that all of us have been dreading .
I dreaded it too .
And yeah , it sucked . Ugh .
I had headache early in the morning .
Tummyache halfway in class .
Was feeling damn horrible lah zzz .
Seriously felt like going home , that's why I was quiet and kept to myself .
Minimise contact with people :/
I knw I should've gone home but I didn't want to lag behind in studies .
I'm sorry , I've seen the doctor anyway .
He said I was recovering , so you don't need to worry :x
Woke up 6:25 . Damn sleepy .
Schl bus to schl .
Teacher was scolding me for not wearing tie when I got down the bus .
Irritating . The tie is like so ma fan lah , ugh .
Went to class .
Zhi Hao came late ? Thn in the end , she wanted to quarantine him one LOL .
DAMN FUNNY LAH . She told him to get out and immediately punched her handphone buttons , haha :x
Anyway , everyone's temperature was normal lah , haha :D
First lesson was Bio .
Copied notes and slept through the rest of the lesson .
Gosh , it was boring .
Anyway , I'm aiming for A* in Bio .
Go dionis ! You can do it !
Haha , my file check got full marks !
Can't believe it , lmao .
Next was Integrated History .
Ugh , freaking boring .
Dozed off all the time .
Got back the stupid SEQ test .
I failed it 10/25 .
Wtf lah , I really studied for it alrdy leh .
Totally hate history .
DAMN YOU .
Anyway going to change history teacher , yay lol .
Recess .
Ate Yong Tau Foo with Shen Jing and Yiming as usual .
Stupid Fraser put chilli into my bowl .
Wahlao eh , damn hot can .
Zzz , made my lips burn like wth .
I hate you -.-
HCL .
Uh , went through worksheets and collected homework .
Went through the textbook though more thn half the class didn't bring .
I didn't pay attn , was talking about BOF with Chervelle :x
LA .
Copied notes on Macbeth .
I didn't really fall alseep , haha .
Was feeling much better anyway .
Lunch .
Ate omelette with Yiming .
Assembly in class .
Goals and stuffs . Boring .
A total waste of time can ._.
After schl .
Went home with Tse Jie .
Once I reached home , I headed for the bed and slept all the way until like 7 :x
Went to see doctor .
Oh wells . Now I'm trembling again , ugh .
Stupid medicine . Hope I'm well soon .
I feel so -_- whenever I'm sick lah :/
Anyway I'll show you smth a jerk said .
Wtf man . If this is true , I rather become a les .
Damnit . What's wrong with guys ?
Anyway , whatever .
Deciding to be a nun till 18 anyhow :D
And I miss Jasmine ._.
Ahhh , thn in the morning , no one come and find me .
I feel so weird o:
Love ya babe , come back soon , I miss you !
Ahh , I'm sleeping soon .
I've got headache again .
Bye (:
Dreamway ♥ .
10:16 PM <3
It's so heart-wrenching ):
Friday, June 26, 2009,
Hello !
I feel much better now (:
After a sleep and ... punching pillows , lol .
Sorry lah , I knw I'm childish .
Guess I can't deny that , haiis ._.
Well , I'll just have to live with it anyway :/
And I still miss sixoneohsix and zibi'08 , rawr D:
Gosh , really hate changes , ahhh ):
Anyway , slept at 3 plus yesterday ):
Yeah , I knw it's damn late :/
Woke up at 9 . Prior to this , I have been only catching 3 hours of sleep every night .
So like today I was damn sleepy lah .
Okay anyway , did my stuffs and met Jasmine and Tse Jie at Bedok's Macs .
They did homework and I ate breakfast .
Very long never eat Macs breakfast alrdy , haha :x
Anyway , after we finished , we MRT-ed to Joo Koon .
Slept quite soundly on the train ride there .
Tse Jie say I sleeping , I really open eye and sleep one , gosh -.-
Sounds scary lah ._.
Okay , not totally open , like half open , ughhh :/
Walked to the whatever arena .
The rest were alrdy there o.o
Anyway today we were up against Ang Mo Kio Sec .
Matthew and Marcus stayed back to 'support' us o:
Okay , Matthew wasn't really cheering , he was more like talking to himself .
None of us could understand his jokes , lol .
We said that the speaker was a tree , thn some more got nest in it , LOL .
Haha , he got pissed and moved away , yay :D
Anyway we won 3-0 (:
Seniors played all anyway .
Anyway after the match , we were so bored .
We just like stoned on the bench until we saw Marcus and Matthew playing pool !
We went inside the room to play too , haha ! :D
I shot in alot of balls ! It's my 2nd try on pool , haha :/
But thn I shot in 2 of the other team's balls .
Thn in the end , we lost , ahhh , so sad ._.
Sorry uh ):
Near us , there were 3 ah lians , they keep calling us to diam .
Cause we were quite noisy lah , I admit .
We were cheering after every ball went in :x
But thn , no need to act pro right , kp ah lians , 3 VS 13 , you all gg can .
I don't think you all can fight anyway .
One was so fat , lmao , her legs totally looked like pig trotters , gosh -.-
Act cool lah , anyway whatever .
Lazy to go argue with them , anyway they live in the west also none of my business .
And we yelling also none of their business what .
Don't like thn put tissue paper lah , too bad .
Anyway went to the toilet , thn we walked to the MRT .
Took train to Aljurnied .
On the train , I saw someone staring at me leh .
Stare what stare sia , I gouge out your eyes ah .
Cheng Ting gave up her seat to a old man ,
And I can't believe it lah , one stupid Malay woman just plopped herself on the seat ,
Pretending that she didn't see the old man , wow .
That's like so considerate manzx . Does she have any conscience at all ?
Anyway , I gave up my seat to the old man even though my hands and legs were trembling .
Yeah , I ate the wrong does medicine , it keeps happening .
Stupid sia , why am I so forgetful ):
On the train , I seriously looked like I had Parkingsons man .
I pour medicine , whole hand also shake like mad .
Can't even take picture .
We played with my rings , haha .
Tse Jie took one , my hands were shaking too much ._.
Anyway , me , Jasmine and Tse Jie and officially married , HAHA (:
So I have two wifes LOL !
Alighted at Aljurnied to eat ananas .
Tse Jie bought drinks .
While we were eating , Jasmine's uncle called .
Her phone got problem , so she used my phone to call her uncle .
It was something about her grandfather and he told her to rush back .
So we went to board MRT immediately :/
I wondered what happened .
I still have no news of what happened as of now :x
I still rmbed the day my father's father died ,
I wasn't close to him , so I thought I wouldn't be sad when he died .
But I cried like mad , I can't believe it .
Zzz , guess I ain't as strong I think I am , ugh .
Arghh , thinking about it makes me wanna cry .
Anyway , rest in peace grandfather (:
I still love you for everything [:
Thanks for giving my father a good education .
Without that , there might not be me , hahah :D
My father told me alot of stories of my grandfather .
He was a good man , used to have a factory that produced rubber .
But the factory perished in a fire , though I don't knw how the fire started ._.
And he donated money to build a schl in Malaysia !
My father studied in that primary schl , hahaha !
Sounds like BOF right ! But thn that schl is just a normal schl with no privileges , haha :/
I'm sure you're in heaven now , you're such a nice person .
Still rmbed his funeral . Still rmbed how his body had started to rot within a short 3 days .
Life is short , treasure it .
Okay , I think I talk too much crap liaoz .
Went home after that .
Forgot what I did leh , zz .
Oh yeah , I went to sleep cause I was shaking like mad .
Couldn't even type properly .
Play bejeweled also like a handicapped person .
So I gave up after some time , at least I broke my own high score even though my hand was shaking .
All I can say is that it was pure luck , haha (:
Felt damn refreshed after the sleep .
Woke up and ate chicken rice ! HAHA
I've been wanting to eat chicken rice since last week lah !
Ask everyone in my team , they also knw , LOL !
Think I'm abit kuku liaoz .
Oh well , tmrw got competition against RGS .
Good luck .
Maybe I should sleep early .
Idk lah , hahaha bye :D
Sometimes the right decisions are the hardest decisions to make ;
But what else could I do ?
I had to prove that I was able to make right decisions .
So I called it off , I'm really sorry .
I'm feeling so guilty now ._.
I love you all anyway (:
Miss you all too ._.
I feel much better now (:
After a sleep and ... punching pillows , lol .
Sorry lah , I knw I'm childish .
Guess I can't deny that , haiis ._.
Well , I'll just have to live with it anyway :/
And I still miss sixoneohsix and zibi'08 , rawr D:
Gosh , really hate changes , ahhh ):
Anyway , slept at 3 plus yesterday ):
Yeah , I knw it's damn late :/
Woke up at 9 . Prior to this , I have been only catching 3 hours of sleep every night .
So like today I was damn sleepy lah .
Okay anyway , did my stuffs and met Jasmine and Tse Jie at Bedok's Macs .
They did homework and I ate breakfast .
Very long never eat Macs breakfast alrdy , haha :x
Anyway , after we finished , we MRT-ed to Joo Koon .
Slept quite soundly on the train ride there .
Tse Jie say I sleeping , I really open eye and sleep one , gosh -.-
Sounds scary lah ._.
Okay , not totally open , like half open , ughhh :/
Walked to the whatever arena .
The rest were alrdy there o.o
Anyway today we were up against Ang Mo Kio Sec .
Matthew and Marcus stayed back to 'support' us o:
Okay , Matthew wasn't really cheering , he was more like talking to himself .
None of us could understand his jokes , lol .
We said that the speaker was a tree , thn some more got nest in it , LOL .
Haha , he got pissed and moved away , yay :D
Anyway we won 3-0 (:
Seniors played all anyway .
Anyway after the match , we were so bored .
We just like stoned on the bench until we saw Marcus and Matthew playing pool !
We went inside the room to play too , haha ! :D
I shot in alot of balls ! It's my 2nd try on pool , haha :/
But thn I shot in 2 of the other team's balls .
Thn in the end , we lost , ahhh , so sad ._.
Sorry uh ):
Near us , there were 3 ah lians , they keep calling us to diam .
Cause we were quite noisy lah , I admit .
We were cheering after every ball went in :x
But thn , no need to act pro right , kp ah lians , 3 VS 13 , you all gg can .
I don't think you all can fight anyway .
One was so fat , lmao , her legs totally looked like pig trotters , gosh -.-
Act cool lah , anyway whatever .
Lazy to go argue with them , anyway they live in the west also none of my business .
And we yelling also none of their business what .
Don't like thn put tissue paper lah , too bad .
Anyway went to the toilet , thn we walked to the MRT .
Took train to Aljurnied .
On the train , I saw someone staring at me leh .
Stare what stare sia , I gouge out your eyes ah .
Cheng Ting gave up her seat to a old man ,
And I can't believe it lah , one stupid Malay woman just plopped herself on the seat ,
Pretending that she didn't see the old man , wow .
That's like so considerate manzx . Does she have any conscience at all ?
Anyway , I gave up my seat to the old man even though my hands and legs were trembling .
Yeah , I ate the wrong does medicine , it keeps happening .
Stupid sia , why am I so forgetful ):
On the train , I seriously looked like I had Parkingsons man .
I pour medicine , whole hand also shake like mad .
Can't even take picture .
We played with my rings , haha .
Tse Jie took one , my hands were shaking too much ._.
Anyway , me , Jasmine and Tse Jie and officially married , HAHA (:
So I have two wifes LOL !
Alighted at Aljurnied to eat ananas .
Tse Jie bought drinks .
While we were eating , Jasmine's uncle called .
Her phone got problem , so she used my phone to call her uncle .
It was something about her grandfather and he told her to rush back .
So we went to board MRT immediately :/
I wondered what happened .
I still have no news of what happened as of now :x
I still rmbed the day my father's father died ,
I wasn't close to him , so I thought I wouldn't be sad when he died .
But I cried like mad , I can't believe it .
Zzz , guess I ain't as strong I think I am , ugh .
Arghh , thinking about it makes me wanna cry .
Anyway , rest in peace grandfather (:
I still love you for everything [:
Thanks for giving my father a good education .
Without that , there might not be me , hahah :D
My father told me alot of stories of my grandfather .
He was a good man , used to have a factory that produced rubber .
But the factory perished in a fire , though I don't knw how the fire started ._.
And he donated money to build a schl in Malaysia !
My father studied in that primary schl , hahaha !
Sounds like BOF right ! But thn that schl is just a normal schl with no privileges , haha :/
I'm sure you're in heaven now , you're such a nice person .
Still rmbed his funeral . Still rmbed how his body had started to rot within a short 3 days .
Life is short , treasure it .
Okay , I think I talk too much crap liaoz .
Went home after that .
Forgot what I did leh , zz .
Oh yeah , I went to sleep cause I was shaking like mad .
Couldn't even type properly .
Play bejeweled also like a handicapped person .
So I gave up after some time , at least I broke my own high score even though my hand was shaking .
All I can say is that it was pure luck , haha (:
Felt damn refreshed after the sleep .
Woke up and ate chicken rice ! HAHA
I've been wanting to eat chicken rice since last week lah !
Ask everyone in my team , they also knw , LOL !
Think I'm abit kuku liaoz .
Oh well , tmrw got competition against RGS .
Good luck .
Maybe I should sleep early .
Idk lah , hahaha bye :D
Sometimes the right decisions are the hardest decisions to make ;
But what else could I do ?
I had to prove that I was able to make right decisions .
So I called it off , I'm really sorry .
I'm feeling so guilty now ._.
I love you all anyway (:
Miss you all too ._.
Dreamway ♥ .
11:50 PM <3
I only looked at you all this while .
Yo !
We reached Night Safari at about 6 plus reaching 7 .
There were hell lot of people there !
They were all queuing to go in LOL .
Cause like 7 thn can go in mah .
Went to buy the tickets . Quite ex leh :/
But we got to spend family time , so it's okay :D
When we got inside , there was a whole lot of koreans boys near us .
We went into the tram queue .
They also went in , haha .
Eh they all look not bad sia , LOL .
I was abit crazy , sorry lah .
I just love koreans that I really want to migrate there !
They all speak korean obviously and korean is such a beautiful language man .
I was thinking about BOF on the whole train ride although I was still looking at nocturnal animals .
Ahh , think I'm going mad soon .
There was one guy who was quite cute and he smiled at me , yay LOL .
Okay , stop being crazy dionis .
Hmm , shall just spam pictures .
There was quite dark , so like mostly can't see anythg with the camera :/
Besides that , no flash is allowed .
But almost everyone broke the rules anyhow .
I left the house with pink socks , haha :D
The people queuing to go in !
Entrance tickets (:
This is the ... Uh , toilet light !
LOL .
Fish :D
I could still see the sunset before we went in , haha :D
LOLOL ! Only she wore the stupid mask -.-
Okay a korean guy was staring at us when we zillianed -.-
Don't ask me how I knw lol .
Cause I too want to knw the reason why I was looking at them (okay more like oogling , but only my sister noticed anw -.-)
Eggs !
Porcupine ! Yeah , this was done only because I had flash -.-
The cafe ! The korean guys behind !
Eh ? Why only got guys one ah ?
I want to see Korean chicks also leh !
Y'knw my mum brought a whole bag full of food .
She think going to the Night Safari is like going for picnic , LOL .
Birds :D
Omg , that's a bat !
This picture is obviously not taken by me .
I don't have the guts to use the flash on the stupid bat -.-
O.O
Two porcupines !
Riding a 'zebra' .
Lol , childish !
Scary ._.
O.O !
Can you see that small creature there ? :D
Family photo , haha :D
Haha , okay done spamming pictures !
Byeee :D
We reached Night Safari at about 6 plus reaching 7 .
There were hell lot of people there !
They were all queuing to go in LOL .
Cause like 7 thn can go in mah .
Went to buy the tickets . Quite ex leh :/
But we got to spend family time , so it's okay :D
When we got inside , there was a whole lot of koreans boys near us .
We went into the tram queue .
They also went in , haha .
Eh they all look not bad sia , LOL .
I was abit crazy , sorry lah .
I just love koreans that I really want to migrate there !
They all speak korean obviously and korean is such a beautiful language man .
I was thinking about BOF on the whole train ride although I was still looking at nocturnal animals .
Ahh , think I'm going mad soon .
There was one guy who was quite cute and he smiled at me , yay LOL .
Okay , stop being crazy dionis .
Hmm , shall just spam pictures .
There was quite dark , so like mostly can't see anythg with the camera :/
Besides that , no flash is allowed .
But almost everyone broke the rules anyhow .
I left the house with pink socks , haha :D
The people queuing to go in !
Entrance tickets (:
This is the ... Uh , toilet light !
LOL .
Fish :D
I could still see the sunset before we went in , haha :D
LOLOL ! Only she wore the stupid mask -.-
Okay a korean guy was staring at us when we zillianed -.-
Don't ask me how I knw lol .
Cause I too want to knw the reason why I was looking at them (okay more like oogling , but only my sister noticed anw -.-)
Eggs !
Porcupine ! Yeah , this was done only because I had flash -.-
The cafe ! The korean guys behind !
Eh ? Why only got guys one ah ?
I want to see Korean chicks also leh !
Y'knw my mum brought a whole bag full of food .
She think going to the Night Safari is like going for picnic , LOL .
Birds :D
Omg , that's a bat !
This picture is obviously not taken by me .
I don't have the guts to use the flash on the stupid bat -.-
O.O
Two porcupines !
Riding a 'zebra' .
Lol , childish !
Scary ._.
O.O !
Can you see that small creature there ? :D
Family photo , haha :D
Haha , okay done spamming pictures !
Byeee :D
Dreamway ♥ .
2:09 AM <3