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So give me reason ; To prove me wrong ,
To wash this memory clean .
My name is [x]love :D
There is no other info about me .
And all these are just my dreamland .
Dreams that I dream of at night .
Don't like me ? You can leave by the red 'x' on the top right hand corner .
You are @ theundyingpainofmine.blogspot.com.
I don't need anyone change my weaknesses or tell me my strengths , I just need someone who'll appreciate me for everythg that I am .
"It takes a lifetime to find someone, but only a moment to fall in love."
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She didn't mind .
Monday, March 16, 2009,
This is a fictional story that I wrote last year , LOL .
The english sucks , sorry ._.
I'm giving it a title anyway :D
Love in it's most torturous way .
741 words .
She smses him everyday .
But he doesn’t know about her feelings .
She can’t tell him anythg .
Cause her friends did not approve of him and he has another girl in his heart .
She cries over him everyday , a guy she liked from the net .
Why couldn’t that guy just knew how she felt ?
She loved him so much ♥ .
Her heart broke when he told her that he liked someone whom he met often at his schl bookshop .
It practically shattered into a million pieces .
That day , she didn’t reply him as fast as she used to .
How could she ? When her heart was slowly breaking ? It broke slowly , bit by bit .
It seemed to others that it was painless , but she knew deep inside how much it hurts .
She didn’t knew herself well at all . All she knew that she loved him and she still does ♥ .
She knew that she would never get him , but still she continued loving him .
Just someone whom she met in a virtual game , who showed her his picture .
It wasn't only love at first sight , she knew him cause they had been talking everyday ,
Even before they knew how each other looked like .
She was leading a zombie life without him .
She knew that she would never be happy without him , but still she let him go .
After all , that guy was 17 and she was 14 .
An age gap of 3 years . and her friends wouldn’t even let her sms him ,
Cause they knew that the guy would only toy with her .
She knew it would happen too .
But she was going to let it happen .
She didn’t mind .
As long as they had once loved each other before .
But it didn’t even happen , she had been loving him one-sidedly all the time .
She felt the warmness in her heart when he protected her in the virtual game .
How she wished that it would come true in real life .
But she knew , it was only a dream , it would never happen .
Still , she still hung onto that tiny little hope that he would turn back for her ♥ .
It hurts a lot . It really does but she could do nthg to stop it from hurtg .
All she could do was to cry her heart out for him , that’s all .
And he won’t ever take a second look at her cause she was too ugly .
Ugly beyond description .
She knew that her dreams would NEVER come true .
Unfortunately , she just couldn’t stop loving him .
And he told her that he liked her too .
But they had too many differences .
To her , they had no differences at all and it was clear that she loved him .
She hated god .
Why didn’t god make him 2 years younger and let him be in the same schl as her ?
She felt like killg god , but that was virtually impossible . she still loved him ♥ .
After he met her , he was probably sure that he wouldn’t like her at all .
He started dao-ing her giving her , one –word answers .
She was thoroughly hurt by him , but he just didn’t care nor give a damn .
She wanted to die just right then .
Love hurts so much .
She felt like her chest was bursting .
Why had he gave her false hopes in the beginning ?
She had been on the verge of forgetting him completely .
And now he was back and say that he loved her and wanted to get back together .
Though she knew he would ditch her in the end , she still didn’t mind ,
Cause she really loved him .
So much so that even it meant ruining her life and everythg she had .
She just didn’t understand why he didn’t love her as much as she loved him .
Why must love be such a torture ?
WHY !?!?!?
She hated the every way her life was , every part of her life .
Dreamway ♥ .
11:38 PM <3