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So give me reason ; To prove me wrong ,
To wash this memory clean .
My name is [x]love :D
There is no other info about me .
And all these are just my dreamland .
Dreams that I dream of at night .
Don't like me ? You can leave by the red 'x' on the top right hand corner .
You are @ theundyingpainofmine.blogspot.com.
I don't need anyone change my weaknesses or tell me my strengths , I just need someone who'll appreciate me for everythg that I am .
"It takes a lifetime to find someone, but only a moment to fall in love."
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Thursday, March 12, 2009,
I ran , I ran as fast as I could ,
Trying to let those memories fade into thin air behind me .
But I couldn't , I failed .
My vision only got blurrer as I tried to fight back .
And when I couldn't see anything anymore ,
I broke down into tears .
People stared at me like I was crazy .
Maybe I was , I just didn't knw it .
I wanted to so much to scream .
Scream at the sky for toturing me so much .
Scream for letting me met you .
Scream to relieve some of the pain in my chest .
I didn't want any of it , yet I couldn't pull myself away from the agony .
The tinge of sadness still lurks in every part of my heart .
I never knew that loving someone could cause such intense pain .
I don't wish to knw either .
But when I've landed myself into this state ,
There was nthg else I could do but wait .
Wait till one day you realise that I really do love you .
And I had never meant to leave you , even though you told me to .
I looked arnd , everythg seemed so meaningless without you .
It was so boring .
Humans everywhere , pretty , handsome , ugly and all sorts of people .
I couldn't even bother to look at them in the face .
A glance to see where they are so that I wouldn't bump into them , would do .
I didn't need to look more .
Cause I knew , you're irreplaceable .
And even if you didn't love me anymore ,
All I wanted was just to see you occasionally .
That would do .
Though it would open up the wound in my heart once again ,
It didn't matter , I was content just to see you .
A spasm of pain ripped through me whenever you said smth nasty .
But I just kept it myself .
I couldn't bear to do anythg else .
Cause I would do anythg ,
Just for you .
But you don't care .
I sat alone at the staircase , looking out at the stars in the sky .
They were beautiful .
But they didn't shine as brightly .
Suddenly , looking at the stars , they grew brighter and brighter .
So bright until I thought you came .
But , no , that wasn't it .
I didn't want to knw what what happening to my eyes .
I didn't want to knw that I was tearing because of you once again .
Self-denial was bad , but I needed it desperately .
But it didn't last for long , the numbness .
The pain came again and again ,
And all I could do was to huddle myself in a corner of bedroom .
Crying and thinking , 'Why ?'
Trying to let those memories fade into thin air behind me .
But I couldn't , I failed .
My vision only got blurrer as I tried to fight back .
And when I couldn't see anything anymore ,
I broke down into tears .
People stared at me like I was crazy .
Maybe I was , I just didn't knw it .
I wanted to so much to scream .
Scream at the sky for toturing me so much .
Scream for letting me met you .
Scream to relieve some of the pain in my chest .
I didn't want any of it , yet I couldn't pull myself away from the agony .
The tinge of sadness still lurks in every part of my heart .
I never knew that loving someone could cause such intense pain .
I don't wish to knw either .
But when I've landed myself into this state ,
There was nthg else I could do but wait .
Wait till one day you realise that I really do love you .
And I had never meant to leave you , even though you told me to .
I looked arnd , everythg seemed so meaningless without you .
It was so boring .
Humans everywhere , pretty , handsome , ugly and all sorts of people .
I couldn't even bother to look at them in the face .
A glance to see where they are so that I wouldn't bump into them , would do .
I didn't need to look more .
Cause I knew , you're irreplaceable .
And even if you didn't love me anymore ,
All I wanted was just to see you occasionally .
That would do .
Though it would open up the wound in my heart once again ,
It didn't matter , I was content just to see you .
A spasm of pain ripped through me whenever you said smth nasty .
But I just kept it myself .
I couldn't bear to do anythg else .
Cause I would do anythg ,
Just for you .
But you don't care .
I sat alone at the staircase , looking out at the stars in the sky .
They were beautiful .
But they didn't shine as brightly .
Suddenly , looking at the stars , they grew brighter and brighter .
So bright until I thought you came .
But , no , that wasn't it .
I didn't want to knw what what happening to my eyes .
I didn't want to knw that I was tearing because of you once again .
Self-denial was bad , but I needed it desperately .
But it didn't last for long , the numbness .
The pain came again and again ,
And all I could do was to huddle myself in a corner of bedroom .
Crying and thinking , 'Why ?'
Labels: I tried .
Dreamway ♥ .
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